Loving Lola- Ch. 47

Surprise Visitor.

It is the night of the big showcase and Lola has not spoken to her sisters since that night. After everything that has happened, for the first time she is unsure if her sisters will be there to support her, despite that, she is uncertain if she wants them to. Over the course of those few days, her relationship with Eric has become stagnate with the decision of moving to New York still hanging in the air. From the time the position was offered, she has done nothing but think of all the people she’d be leaving behind, however, tonight she is hoping to silence those thoughts, making for a beautiful showcase.

“The Artis et Operis Gallery showcase has become one of the biggest social events since Lola’s higher three years ago, just look at all these people!” Timothy says with excitement. “I think this is more people than last year,” Stephanie adds. They both look at Lola with sparkles in their eyes but is soon deterred when they notice she is not sharing their glow, “okay, someone has kidnapped our Lola and replaced her with Ms. Gloom over here, why aren’t you shining like a thousand suns? Do you not see what you’ve done? Girl look at all these people in here, this is because of you!” Lola looks around the full gallery, “you’re right, I should be happy,” “happy? You should be elated, so why aren’t you?” “Lola,” Stephanie interjects, “you were requested at the front,” “requested? By whom?” she asks looking confused. “I’m not sure, they didn’t say,” Stephanie says looking at Timothy. Lola, feeling uneasy, slowly makes her way through the crowd to meet this stranger. Once she arrives to the front, she looks around for a familiar face but does not recognize anyone. She turns and asks the receptionist of the person who requested her, and before she is able to say, Lola hears a deep voice behind her calling out her name.

“Jhené! I’m starving, what do you want for dinner?” Giselle yells from the kitchen. Jhené walks in with a flyer for the Artis et Operis Gallery showcase, “did you know about this?” she asks Giselle. She looks at the flyer, nods her head and proceeds to look for something to eat. “So, were you not going to go?” Giselle sighs, “I don’t think she’d want me there Jhené.” “That’s bullshit and you know it” Jhené says angrily slamming the flyer onto the countertop, “how?” Giselle says with a monotone, “we haven’t spoken in days, but somehow you think just showing up to one of the most important nights of her career is a good idea?” “YES!” yells Jhené. Giselle shakes her head in disbelief and walks out of the kitchen. “Why not?” Jhené says following her, “because Jhené… it just doesn’t work like that,” Giselle says shutting herself in the bathroom. “Giselle!” she yells to her, “… I miss her okay… and I know you miss her to. I just… don’t want her to think that because shit hit the fan we don’t care. Even if I were mad at yall, I would still want to see your ugly faces at my very important event, and regardless of what happened, I think she’d want the same…” Giselle still does not respond, “please Giselle, I know it’s hard and maybe even a little scary, but we’re sisters, and we’re all we got.” Giselle unlocks the door and opens it slowly, “sighs, when did you become the big sister?” Jhené smirks, “when mine started acting like children” she says hugging Giselle. “sigh, I hope you’re right about this one,” “yeah me to. but hey, what’s the worst that can happen? She already said she could never hate us…” They both look at one another then start to get ready.

“Lola.” She stands frozen unable to respond. Her heart starts to pound, and the sound begins to grow louder and louder until it is the only sound that fills the room. This can’t be happening… why, of all nights, why show up tonight? I can’t do this…not now… No! Lola this is your night, this is your life, you will not let him control you anymore! Lola turns slowly and looks him straight in the eyes, “Dad, what are you doing here?”

Loving Lola- Ch. 43

Broken.

“Timothy, can you at least hide next time you want to spy on me?” Lola says as she enters her office. Timothy peeks his head around the corner, “oh, so you saw me huh?” Lola stops and looks at him, “well then, next time I’ll be a little more sneaky, but I don’t know how when the whole front of the gallery is made of glass,” he says throwing himself into the chair. Lola quietly places her things ono the floor next to her desk. “You didn’t look too happy leaving that tall dark and lovely piece of dove chocolate, I hope there isn’t any trouble in paradise,” he says side eyeing her. “Timothy, can you go get Stephanie so we can start setting up this display for the showcase please?” She says ignoring him, “fine, but we will have this conversation miss thang,” he says leaving her office. Lola slumps down into her chair, why did I even get upset… I should just call him and apologize. Lola takes out her phone and scrolls through her contacts for Eric’s number. She finds his name but pauses before pressing the call button. She places her head on her desk and locks her phone then starts to groan. Ms. Allard walks by and peers in at Lola, she smirks and shakes her head going into her office closing the door behind her. Alright, pull yourself together girl, you have a bomb ass display to create, you can self loathe later! Stephanie comes and knocks on the door, “um, Lola?” “Yes?” she answers with her head still placed on the desk, “we need your assistance on placing the Dorothy Lewrant…” Stephanie says bashfully. Lola lifts her head and pulls herself together, “okay, I’ll be right there,” she says putting on a smile. She puts her phone in the drawer and goes to meet Stephanie and Timothy on the floor.


­­­On her way back from lunch, Jhené decides to give Giselle a surprise visit at her office. When she arrives, she knocks on the door and doesn’t receive an answer. She tries to go inside, but the door is locked. She peers in the window and notices all the lights are off; I know this is her lunch time. Somewhat perplexed, she pulls out her phone and decides to call Giselle and see where she is. When the phone begins to ring, she hears a sound coming from her office, oh wow, this girl locked her phone in her office. As she starts to walk away, Giselle answers the phone.

“Hello?” “What the hell? Did you not hear me out here knocking on your door?!” Giselle takes a deep sigh, “yeah…” “Yeah?! What’s going on with you? You’ve been MIA all day. I wanted to go to lunch together, but they said you weren’t on the premises, where did you go?” “I went to go see Sam.” Jhené looks up and places her hand on her head, “can you please open the door, I don’t think this conversation should be had out in the open, plus I feel crazy talking to your door like this.”

Giselle hangs up and unlocks the door. “Smh really,” she says opening the door, “you didn’t want to open it or at least say something?” “Sorry…” Giselle says laying on her couch. “I don’t like this… what the hell happened with Sam?” “… He said he wasn’t going to tell Lola anything.” “So, you went down there to see if he was going to tell her what happened all those years ago?” “… I also went to apologize.” “Did you?” “Yes. But he didn’t accept it. He said it was a bullshit apology and he felt sorry for me, then asked me to leave.” Jhené stands there quietly for a moment then goes to sit down next to her. “…well that was harsh. Although you messed up their relationship and convinced Lola to stay here when you knew she was unhappy…” Giselle looks at her, “although you did those things, I’m really proud of you for trying to fix your mistakes. He may not be too happy with you right now, but I’m sure it’s mostly because he thought you would never own up to your actions, but I think he will come around eventually.” “And if he doesn’t?” Giselle asks softly, “then, that’s okay. Even if he never forgives you, that’s not something for you to burden. You took the most important step and apologized, but now you have to deal with whatever comes from that and accept the consequences of your actions.” Giselle rolls over and hugs Jhené, “thank you for loving me Jhené.”

Loving Lola- Ch. 31

Apologies, apologies.

Lola stands up and rushes out of the restaurant. As the phone is ringing, she contemplates on whether she should answer or not. What do I say to him…? Should I even answer…? Without further hesitation, she answers the phone; “Hello?” Sam observed Lola’s abrupt leave. He glanced at Giselle and Jhené and they both look back at him, they all exchange expressions then look away. Trisha watches Sam’s face as he frowns up with concern. She grabs his hand and asks if he is ready to leave, he nods, and gently moves his hand away calling the waiter over for the check. Trisha takes out her mirror to check herself, but while doing so, she looks behind her to see what has happened. She notices Lola’s absence and flashes a slight smirk. Without knowing, Jhené and Giselle catches her spying on them from the table. She meets their eyes in the mirror and quickly removes it from her face. After the waiter comes back to drop off Sam’s card, Sam and Trisha begin to gather their things to leave. As they stand and begin to walk to the front, Sam signals a slight farewell to the sisters as they walk by. Trisha looks at them out of the side of her eye and keeps walking. Giselle and Jhené look at one another then resume eating their meals.

Eric looks at the phone in disbelief, “He-hello?” Lola is quiet for a moment, “Hi Eric.” Eric is happily surprised. “I didn’t expect you to answer, particularly because you haven’t been lately…” Lola doesn’t say anything. “But it’s all good, I actually want to apologize for blowing you up like that, that’s usually not me. I wanted to give you some space really.” There is a moment of silence on the phone. “Lola, I don’t know what happened, if I said anything to offend you, I am really sorry. You are truly a beautiful person inside and out. I didn’t want to go without letting you know that I am happy to have been the one to take your picture that night.” Lola chuckles, “even though it was supposed to be a group photo?” “Hahaha, you not gone let me slide on that one huh?” “Not a chance.” Eric laughs, “okay, I can take that. So-” “I’m sorry.” She interjects. Eric looks wide eyed at the phone. “You have nothing to apologize for.” “I do. I have been letting my past and my insecurities dictate my actions and I blamed you for it when you were only trying to be nice. I never wanted to let the way others treat me change how I treated others, but I began closing myself off, doubting everyone because of what I went through… I know everyone is not the same, I don’t fully understand your motives, but right now, I believe that you are not a bad guy. So, I really would like to apologize to you for acting how I did, none of this was your fault, if anything, what you said made me realize what I was doing and I thank you for that. I didn’t want to hear it, but I am glad you said it.” Eric smiles, “I appreciate the apology, and I respect you for saying that. You are truly something Miss Lola.” She blushes, “thank you. I am actually at dinner with my sisters right now, and I think it’s time for me to get back,” “oh okay, yeah, I didn’t mean to interrupt your evening,” “oh no, you didn’t, I’m… I’m glad you called,” “I’m glad you answered.” “Me too.” “Alright then, I’ll talk to you later?” “Yes, that sounds good.” “Okay. Good night Lola,” “good night Eric.” They both smile hanging up the phone. Lola grabs her face in disbelief and smiles. When she turns to go back into the restaurant, she bumps into Sam on his way out. “Oh, I’m so sorry, are you oh-” she stops realizing who he is. “Yeah, I’m fine, are you okay?” he says locking eyes with her. “Oh yes, I’m peachy” really bitch! Peachy?! “I’m sorry, I didn’t see you.” “Hahaha, you’re fine Lola.” He says fixing himself. “You guys leaving already?” Girl what? Walk away right now! “Oh yeah, I have to get home, I have an early appointment tomorrow.” “Oh okay, well you definitely have to get your rest then.” OMG please stop talking! “Did you enjoy the food?” “So far yes, this is actually my first time here so,” “Oh, well then you’re certainly going to enjoy it” Trisha interjects, “Sam, I’m ready to go” she says annoyed, “oh I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to hold you guys up. It was nice seeing you again Sam, and nice meeting you, Tisha, was it?” “TRISHA, actually.” “Well! Good night Lola, enjoy the rest of your evening.” Sam interrupts. “You too.” They both wave goodbye and go their separate ways.

Letter to the Grave

Dear Mother,

She is no longer that sweet little girl you once knew.

She is no longer the girl who questioned things to get a positive answer.

She is no longer the girl who looked forward to future, but now descends to the past.

She is no longer the girl who loves first and thinks last, because now she is heavily guarded.

She is no longer brave or courageous-

She is no longer happy.

She is scared, and sad most of the time.

She has limited her possibilities, and closed her mind.

She is now very indecisive about things she should be sure of.

Mother, she is broken.

Mother, I broke her.

No, you broke her.

You left her to fend for herself.

You left her without a choice, or a voice-

You left her silent.

You left her too soon

You left her.

You left…

Mother, she is trying.

Mother, I AM TRYING.

She is trying to hold back the tears, even though she knows she’d drown.

She is trying to be nice, but she is filled with anger.

She is trying to smile more, but the mask allows her to go another day without having to.

She is trying to heal, but can’t because she buried you when they did.

She thought copping was forgiving, but forgiving was forgetting.

Mother, she forgives you.

But I can’t forget you.

S.T.